Well here we are again with another audition for another character with no name. Why does every character I audition for either have a number after his title, IE: Guard # 1 or “the” in the middle of his name IE: Frank the Plumber? You would think that after 9 years I would have earned a shot at an audition for a character with an actual name. I cannot deny it is very disheartening. I also cannot blame my agent for he may submit me but casting may not choose me. The big question is what am I doing wrong? What do I have to do?
I know I am stuck in Montreal currently. The city is not that busy right now. Hasn’t been very busy for a long time. I also know the competition here is crazy because the known actors in this city are willing to take smaller roles due to the slow nature of the business around here. There must be something I can do to break out of this rut.
You ever want something so bad that when you see someone else with it, it actually physically hurts your heart? I would even go so far as to compare it to seeing an ex-girlfriend you’re not over yet moving on with someone you know. That’s how much it kills me to see people acting when they sometimes have no right. When they are awful but right in front of my face. When I channel hop and see an actor on a television show who is disgraceful to the profession. I sit in my chair and see this and it burns me. I get bitter. I really do. I have said out loud “How can you possibly have landed that role?†and there is obviously no reply.
This passion is one of the reasons I know I am going to make it. Either that or I will end up in a mental hospital thinking I am a big movie star and signing bedpans of my fellow patients. Standing amidst the psychiatric ward staff doing Shakespeare in my underwear while eating chocolate pudding with a plastic spoon that has Garfield on it that I stole from the cat lover in the next room who is on lockdown for trying to pet the nurses.
What to do? What to do? Any suggestions….thought not. Well if you think of any…
